[..::^Sunday, September 23, 2007^::..]

heres a little insect and the view of outside the 3rd storey

heres the view of the 3rd storey like a month later O.O
the bamboo grew u see
my pink bag with my history PT inside!

precious!
medicine i have to bring to school =/
leaving the classroom with simei left~
meet my locker~ its name is 831

interhouse games closing day so we are colourful~
steph! and charlene behind (i didn't notice her then o.o,,)
cheryltan and her magazine!
cheryltan and my magazine!
mee : sick

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[..::^Friday, September 14, 2007^::..]

this week was so not my week :(

wednesday was like horrible,,
i was feeling so bad and went to the toilet after chinese,,
at first it seemed quite normal,,
then my stomache starting hurting worse and i had diarhoea(i'll never know how to spell this word),,
great la,,
i just hate using the toilets in school or any public toilets for that matter,,
i just sat there,,
for like i think 30mins or so,,
then i had this urge to vomit,,
it was so bad,,
and i did and it was mainly liquid stuff,,
so i smsed mom,,
AND YOU KNOW WHAT WAS SO LUCKY?
i had my brothers phone,,
it was like cos i left my phone at someones house right,,
so i just borrowed JK's phone randomly when we were going to school,
i am so lucky, (:
and you know how the lights in the toilet were like auto,
so when someone walks in the lights go off after i dunno how long,,
yeah the lights went off 2 times,,
by then, unfortunately, the whole cubicle floor was covered in my sweat,,
okay im sorry for exaggerating but lets say not the whole floor bu at least one third,,
like drops here and there cos i kept on shifting around,,
finally i just collapse, (yeah sweat and all) on the floor,,
my head like banged the wall of the cubicle,,
then i was like great idea!
just bang head and faint,,
i tried but it didn't work,,
then i contemplated on how i should command all my last energy and run out of the toilet and jump off the railings outside class,,
then i decided against it cos i couldn't even stand up and certain individuals wouldn't like it,,
i smsed mother to hurry up but u know what?
i think my whole rampaging in the cubicle thing caused the phone to be like,,
how do you say,,
i dunno,,
OHyeah restricted,,
and it needed this private code and i was like,,
sorry but i threw the phone against the wall =/
i was likecrying so bad wondering why mother took so long =/
finally she came and i was like YES (well not really)
cos she was supposed to have brought the ambulance with her,,
she tricked me!
ms veronica was there i think and she said oh we can't call the ambulance unless we have permission from the principal,,
thanks,,
i'll just die here,
but no i didn't say that,,
instead i started rolling around and like screaming,,
not loudly butyou know those really high pitched one that adults can't hear cos their hearing becomes less sensitive?
yeah,,
finally they agreed to call the ambulance,,
i really unfortunately held a great dislike to all the people there =/
i know i shouldn't blame them,,
but i was feeling so horrible and i needed help so bad,,
anyways i think i knocked out awhile,,
and woke up when the ambulance came,,
by then i was like filled with relief and exhaustion cos the pain wasn't so intense,,
slept awhile again and woke up when we reached KK,,
the nurse took my blood pressure like 4 times?
she said my bp was too low,,
so i just rested there (at the hospital) for quite a while,,
she gave me like 5 days mc and i went home,,
soon after mother brought me to the dentist to have my teeth taken out,,
i was like just so i dunno,,
pissed?
i dunno,,
cos i was suppose to be resting and my bp low and everything how can they take out my teeth and make me go through more pain?!
aurghershies,,
anyways after the dentist,
mother told me how i was lousy and how i couldn't take charge of my pain,,
its so irritating when people say you're lousy cos you can't do something when they dont have to go through it,,
whatever,,
you dont walk it then dont talk it,,
thursday was my mc day,
but was forced to go to school because someone didn't want me to miss lessons,,
fine,,
glad it didn't hurt that much,,
but in the late afternoon like after i came back from training,
my mouth hurted really bad,,
gosh,,
but somehow i lived through it and beared with it throughout math tuition,,
which was like 2 hours,,
then i just chionged to bed,,
by then my stomach hurted too so i just wanted to sleep and forget all the pain la,,
the next morning i still had the feeling although not so painful,,
you know whats the first thing mom said?
"you trying to skip your math test is it?"
wow if that was suppose to force me to go to school it did,,
i just washed up and went to school,,
and i just cried practically the whole morning,,
i dunno how i manage to go through the test but yea i did,,
after the test there was the feeling in my stomach again,,
but this is different,,
i probably got it cos i didn't eat breakfast and ate my medicine so yea,,
but i didn't want to go home =/
so i joined the class with their PE,,
and i heard they got this long ugly lecture from KT,,
yeah apparently our class is notorious for ponning,,
i just feel that it isn't fair to those who have genuine problems,, =/
im not pointing at myself but like others la,,
anyways i went to tell aldrin tee i was going home then i went to the office,,
he just sniffed and winked at me,, =/ as usual,,
when i went to the office everyone like seemed to know me?,,
yeah then i signed the thing and this teacher came out,,
she gave me this long lecture about how i must mamange my pain,,
and made me cry,,
she thinks it easy too,,
people who don't go through it all do,,
some people will say "i know its hard" and they'll sympathise,,
but in their mind they'll be thinking i bet if i'd gone through it i'll be able to manage it better than her,, and i will be able to pull all my strength to go from the toilet to the classroom and rest and walk to the foyer to take a taxi to the hospital,,
well, unless u go through the pain yourself dont make your assumptions,,
furthermore sorry if i have a low tolerance of pain,
im lousy,
fine,
whatever,
im tired,

lala ~ 7:58 PM

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[..::^Wednesday, September 05, 2007^::..]

ohno ~
im too tired for captions :x
just see the pretty pictures (:

lala ~ 4:03 PM

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